You know, it was raya right? So all my relatives that has seen me tonnes of times every raya would ask the same question.
"Ahh, Aisyah berapa tahun dah?"
"Tujuh belas"
"Ohhh SPM lah ye!"
"Mmmhmm"
Everybody says that. I mean, everyone. Onced they've known that ur 17, the word SPM never fails to pop out as the first thing to be said. They'll all ask,
oh dah ready? Dah dekat ye SPM! Yes Im pretty sure all us form fivers are quite aware of that. We think about it every single day. Ever think that we need a break from listening the letters 'S', 'P', and 'M'. I guess people just dont know how else to start a conversation. They normally go with :
Ur so tall!
U've gained weight!
Its always about appearance. Why are people so judgemental? It always have to do with physical, hishh. So anyway, SPM is practically stamped on each form fivers head. Its quite tiring, but at times engaging. I was so pening all the SPM questions, when we drove home, I actually saw a building called ;
SPM SDN BHD.
I was like what? This thing definitely has controlled my mind. It was this recycling industry or something. But still, SPM is everywhere. And its coming.
After doing trials, all of us got this wake up call on how hard SPM is. All this while I thought, hey maybe it'll be okay. I've done the past years. They seem fine (yeah, because you looked at the answers dumbo). Trials was horrible. It was hard, really. I have no confidence in it whatsoever. Im doomed, doomed!
Everybody expects you to well in SPM. Everybody wants you to shoot for the stars. Its hard sometimes, to live up to everyone's expectation, that you dont realise the most important expectation is from you yourself.
So we all have to get in gear now, its a month away! And it won't be pretty!
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